As usual, for only these few weeks before my piano exam, i cycled to Fern's hse for piano lesson..

I was always vry cho lor..
n my legs always kena "ga le" by the bicycle.. sobx..

i was changing the gears as i cycled.. it was a Le Run mountain bike ma.. so i change lai change ki.. change until suddenly it stopped half way n i nearly fell down. so sui.. den.. when i reached lavinia.. i din realised tht there's a car at the junction.. n luckily i din die..cos the driver drove pretty slow.. ammitabha.. hahahax

when i got off my bicycle.. my legs were like.. patah-ing.. pain..

i played my scales.. still ok..
there're much mistakes.. but better than wad i did the last lesson..
but then, the exam pieces r horrible..
kena marah again.. i dono how other pp can do so well.. whereas.. me?? a failure in music..
fcuk..

n the bad news.. Fern told me tht the original exam piece is outta stock..
omg.. i was so shocked u know..
im afraid tht i cant play well in da exam hall..
n im afraid of the examiner.. susan clark..
Fang once told me tht women examiners r more strict compared to men..
i hope tht this time is a better one..
the previous examiner i had was nice..
i "passed with merit" during my grade four exam.. yoohoo..
but fang poured me cold water n said tht i was js lucky..
n i selamba-ly admit n was js running away frm the fact n don wana admit tht im lucky...

anyway, i js hope tht i wont fail in my grade five piano exam this fri.
im so nervous..
during the music recital on sat.. wad i played was totally.. GHOST TUNE..
siasuinya..
sobx..
tht's my best piece u noe.. A2..
watever..
ill js have to work hard for one more week..
den.. mayb ponteng on tht day of tht exam.. n try hard for the following grades..

finally js went home with an awful mood.. tired..
T________T
going to sch later on..
hope tht huiting has the grade five exam pieces..
may god bless me..

i love music..
but im lazy.. n i've no talent in it.
sad.