You simply don't need me, so everything's over now.

Everyone seems to be excited returning back to college, 

few weeks left to go, but very certainly I'm outta this.

We had the best moments in September.

Everyone flocked together like a big big family, laughing and joking.

But ever since that night, I think things changed a lot.

I wished I never have made that decision to actually TRY this.

It turned out to make the whole situation so unhappy.

I always remembered what Nein said to me that evening in the car.

And he was right. What he told you was right, but you ignored him.

Idk if it's your problem, or mine.

But obviously, I couldn't accept all these. 

And it's really pressuring me from the inside.

Maybe outsiders would think I'm oversensitive, 

because nobody would ever know how it felt, 

having friendships around you turning loose.

And looking at photos you wouldn't like to see.

You play, and play and still, play. And you called it, style.

I don't blame you for anything, because there's nothing wrong at all.

But it's not something I want, not something I can accept.

I'm really surprised when you actually realised that I'm unhappy. 

How many times I've to look at you play and laugh, feeling lonely and left out.
You said, "You still have me." But you just said that in words, you're never there.
Never there when I need you and you never take note about my whereabouts.
I don't mind if you at least, check on me.

I feel weird in college, because we didn't talk.
You talk to the other girls. Or maybe play with the guys.
That shows why I'm so quiet in class, feeling sour.
All I could do is sit somewhere, and look.

I try not to care, but how could I, right?

And when I wish to go somewhere.
I'd talk about it, and sometimes, ask if you wanna go or not.
If you know me, you'd probably know that I love travelling and shopping a lot.
But then tadaaa. You said it's boring and you're lazy to go with me.
Not unless the guys are going with you.
I thought you'd be willing to accompany me wherever I go?

It's not something which I can again, complain.

Because there's nothing wrong to be complained about.

And before the situation turns severe, I hereby call it quits.

Maybe, everyone would be happier this way.

Though you wouldn't see this post, 
but this whole passage is what I really feel, from the inside.