FOUR YOUs

I'm having a real hard time now.

Even harder ever since yesterday, and I felt like choking.
I've been abandoning my assignments for a week now, and I sleep more than usual.

Sleeping helps ease the pain. But the dreams doesn't.

"... but you can control of the things you want to do.

So think properly. "

Thanks for accompanying me all these while.

You're a good friend who sees me in the eye,

thinks that I'm awesome despite I'm not, 

Gives me a hand when I need one and makes me laugh.

It's great that you finally knew, without having me to tell you.

And nobody has the right to be jealous of.
That's all that we've to know.

" Ex-boyfriend and ex-girlfriend run into each other.
Boy: Hey, listen here. I really miss you.
Girl: *sneezes*

Boy: Bless you. Are you sick?
Girl: No. I'm just allergic to bullshit. "

One of my favourite, from thebankquotes.

Well seriously, either if it's "what goes around comes around",

or if my deceased ancestors love me a little too much,

or if god wants me to wake up and stop being silly,

they somehow left me lots of clues.

It hurts. But it's better to know.

" The green-eyed monster. "

If you realised what I've known,

I guess that's enough to keep your mouth shut.

You wouldn't be able to even fake a smile then.

Thanks to your deceitful sins.

You showed me hell.

" Many said you live in your own imaginary world.

You are weak in the inside, extremely dangerous to get hold of. "

I'm so sorry for myself.

I told the wrong secret, got myself into hot soup.

Well, that wasn't the big deal, the big deal is what's going on behind the scenes.

I've been silly thinking that you're always being true to me, like how I am to you.

Maybe I've seen Yunyan in you. But she's so much better, obviously.

Yeah, you're smart. But not when it comes to things like this.

Just admit your mistake. Okay?

It'd help you a lot.

" You, silly girl."

Me.

Why not a silly boy instead?

I always wanted to be a guy.

Strong enough to actually shield myself.

Things has been going on and off for weeks,

but I have not drip a single tear. 

Life's hard like this. 

" il mio ippopotamo scomparso "

You're the best.

I want to slap myself like a million times for this.

Don't guess with a million thoughts, cos they're all gonna turn up negative.

I know you must have seen all those improper sentences.

All from my stupid facebook account. But you know what?

There are big fat lies that lies within those sentences itself.

It's useless explaining though. Too complicated.

And at times like this,

I should be the one right there for you.

Something struck me last night, then you came into mind.

But something hold me back again, because I'm the one that made you cry.

I should know where I stand and I'll not come back for good.

You must've hate me to the max.

I'm so sorry.

:'(