PICS of THE DAY

well
stayed back in school today.
practised dancing.
kinda simple.
and
thanks for teaching us, yiling ..

I love this!

Today i met a great new friend

Who knew me right away
It was funny how she understood
All i had to say

She listened to my problems
She listened to my dreams
We talked about love and life
She'd been there,too,it seems

I never once felt judged by her
She knew just how i felt
She seemed to just accept me
And all the problems I'd been dealt

She didn't interrupt me
Or need to have her say
She just listened very patiently
And didn't go away

I wanted her to understand
How much this meant to me
But as I went to hug her
Something startled me

I put my arms in front of me
And went to put her nearer
And realized that my new best friend
Was nothing but a mirror

Hectic Saturday.. Feb 21

went to school today.

Traning camp
and also..
caligraphy competition!
(my 2nd time in school life)
LOL LOL LOL

reached at 8.35am.
and as expected..
50 steppings
for being late for 5 mins..
with my NIKE sneakers!! wtf.

Tip-toed away from the marching zone...
and had breakfast with laicheng and wen in the canteen.
Then, up we went to the highest floor of block 98. phew~
liming arrived moments later cos the board needed her.

dengan penuh tumpuan~

My piece of work.

Yu wen's 3 in 1 geli mixed up.

[by three of us..]
DONE

Those form6 gina made our laughs unstoppable.
Their outlook were so damn funny kay.
As if they're thirteen instead of nineteen.

Left block98 around 10am.
back to carpark2 to fog-in.
and when everything ended, i met up with joyce.
she really looked diff.
winks*
Then, i went to carpark1 to meet up mokmok.
and someone flashed me with an evil smile. yer.
it was ong bee lay.
really wanted to dig a hole and jump into it lerr that time.
yucks.

Next stop:
Karaikudi Restaurant, Sea View Garden.

Had my lunch with mokmok till both of us were bloated.
I didn't expect that chettinad cuisine could made pp so full!
Spent an hour eating! gosh.
but most of all, i enjoyed my banana lassi drink.

The Menu

banana lassi drink

Nene food.

Following destination:
Island Plaza

bought hush puppies pants for myself.
=]

5th day of the week

Fri-
All lessons were boring today.
i could not understand a single word every teacher said..
~say hi to the coffin.

Met up with ah dear after school.
but unfortunately wansing who was crying asked me to acc her for a while.
Talked to her for 15 mins and she was ok, i guess.

Then,.. GURNEY!
my mind was DEAD set on the 2 particular shops:
1) Quiksilver
2) Studio-R

Went to Quiksilver first cos it's nearer.
Had a hard time choosing for clothes.
I bet the salesgirl's really patient enough to do such work for me.
cos i walked round the shop for about... XXX times??
and.. Roxy zip me up bags!
Black or grey?
Had a hard time choosing my bags again.
but anyway ah dear and the salesgirl suggested the grey one..
so i CHOSE it.

*Half price for the 2nd item purchased (Valentine's Day discount)
TOTAL:Rm219.85
[**regret for not creating the membercard though.
just rm130.15 away. i'm so dumb! argh.]

A piece of dark green coloured note was used right after i went into studio-R.
for Nike water tumbler.
I'm so in love with THE TICK recently. Nyahahaha.
JUST DO IT.
After shopping, we went back to sch by taxi.
ah dear was so excited cos it was her very first taxi ride.
teehee.
Nothing special back in school..
Watched pp dancing in the stadium.
Saw jlan dance.. XD
and the cheap lass popped her head into her stadium too. wtf.

Seeing you=seeing her.
which makes me sad.

Valentine's Day's gifts

Add ONs

Apex rose petals from dear mommy..
~I ♥ you~

Moody bear from wansing.
Thanks a lot.
~ Hugs ~

MOODY THURSDAY..

Everything was pretty fine this morning.

No nonsensical thinking.
I kept myself as busy as a bee,
just like what i had told lee mei last night..

but..
things went wrong when school dismiss..
8833 drove passed me just like that!!
I was like.. wtf?
so suey!!!!

Called Mokmok.
No answer.
Called mom.

and she said she could only make it after 2pm.
=[
i'm.. ALONE.
didn't wanna meet my frens in school neither.
too moody to do so.
.
.
Instant noodles was my lunch
and..SHANDY???!
[ 1% of alcohol. ]
insufficient money for beer drinking.
what a pity..
.
.
During the one-hour waiting,
I recalled wad wen told me
and..
felt like as if i'm dumped somehow.
what more can i do?
continue worrying and complaing like a sick child?
i've to move on.
but just too reluctant to do so.
i'm so used to having u around.

Precious times.. ♥

09:31pm, 13/02/2009...

"Andy (20) missed calls"
That was what i saw on my w910i screen after i left my phone in the room for quite a while.
Immediately, my thoughts were:
"shit* someone's gonna kill me for not answering calls.."
The phone rang again and went dead.
That was when i looked outta the window and realised...
HOHO~
U'RE HERE!!

I flew outta my room to the stairscase which is actually just outside my room.
There u stood, hiding something behind u.
I can see u blushing in the dark and u handed me a bouquet of flowers!!!
At that very moment, my heart skipped a beat and i actually yelped outta joy..
I'M SO DAMN HAPPY!
Thankyou, dear.








We did not chat for long as i did not want mummy to realise my disappearance..

But when i tiptoed back into the house, mummy realised something wrong and checked it out. Daddy even teased me.

=[
Things were not so happy then...




















12:00am, 14/02/2009...
Valentine's here pee-pal!
Opened the mini sized card you gave me.
I'm touched as i realised that i'm always so loved, by you..
After chatting on the phone

and wishing everyone Happy Valentine's Day,
i went to bed with the bouquet of flowers right beside me.

05.00am, 14/02/2009..
Woke up and dressed up for school.
This was only the second time i went to school by bus this week.
Mostly i couldn't got up and needed daddy to fetch me to school.
As usual, got up to the bus and.. oinkoink~ Zzzzzz
with Joyce by my side...

06.45am, 14/02/2009..
Reached school finally.
But i couldn't find my dear lai cheng.
She was no where to be found.. =[
so i went to filled up my bottle and dropped by at the counter.
Nobody there though. Said hi to wanyi. Haha.
Then i saw someone familiar sitting on the bench..
J...
I passed by and went upstairs to find laicheng again.
But she was not there.
I made up my mind and planned to acc J,
not really knowing exactly what to say actually.
Seeing her isolating herself wasn't really her personality..
and i guessed i knew why she was so moody.. because of someone.
I was relieved when she started talking.
She smiled when wei teng approached.
2 chocolates were given to her to cheer her up.
[but she dropped them onto the floor without knowing it.. hng]
laicheng passed by with hooimin later on and i knew she's gonna tease me pretty soon.
=S

07.20am, 14/02/2009...
Met up wenwen and laicheng in front of their class.
As expected.. I was teased.
They counted how many "people" i'm going to celebrate with today.
wen even peeped me from upstairs before this. Wtf.
SUKAN TARA started right after we took our attendance.
It was boring and i kept coughing.
Hate it.
Joined Eunice and chia chiu for a while.
The rest of my time were spent accompanying my beloved yeou ching.
Nyahahaha. "HUSBAND and WIFE"
Didn't talk much though.
I dono y i prefer keeping my mouth shut that time..
After the event ended, i walked around the school with yeou ching.
We chatted a lot. Dirty topics. HAHAHA

10.30pm, 14/02/2009...
RECESS TIME!!
liming and wen were already standing outta the class when i met them up.
and i met someone by surprise... xiao mei!!
i ajak her to go mumm mumm with me and she agreed. yay~
It was ages since we ever talked to each other.
since form2. I was rebellious back then.
I'm so so sorry.
Then, we sat beside leemei in the canteen..
Xiao mei left us after the bell rang..
I really cherished the 20 mins we had.
Next, "travelled" all around school with ah dear..
We talked so much.. and i even gave her choc as valentine's day gift.
Hee. Touched lerr...?

11am, 14/02/2009...
Did not join my classmates to Oxford's ceramah in the hall.
Went to training camp instead.
surprisingly, only 4 of us for form 5.
Wen, me, qian mei and tze teng ONLY.
We joined the form six girls and all of us sort of forgot how to march.
Nyahahaha. Who would wanna rmb it anyway??

Dirty talk with innocent yvonne at st john corner during the break.
She kept "yerrrrrr.." non stop nia.
It made me laughed and i coughed non stop. =(

Everyone gathered and we fogged in for one last time on 12.15pm, below sunny pakpak!
but thank god it lasted for only.. 10 mins???

12.30pm, 14/02/2009...
Back to S5E.
Wished my beloved mummy HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY.
=) she seemed happy. HEE.
Didn't stay long in class.
Joined wen and went to liming's class to crap..
Dirty talking again. And we laughed non stop.
HAHA

12.40pm, 14/02/2009..
school dismissed, finally.
Was alone after wen and liming went home. =[
Walked to 7eleven cos i'm supposed to meet up someone there.
But unfortunately, she went dating with her darling d.
phoned Andy.
still stucked in traffic jams on road near UHS.
sighed*

Suddenly, i heard someone called me out.
It was yu chiou!
I noticed icecream standing nearby but i pretended that she was invisible.
We chatted a lot and dear chiou even gave me a rose.
Fake one though. but i like it. Thankyou~
Sze wei saw it and wanted one too.
She was so happy when yu chiou gave her the purple one.
Her fav colour. =)
Ee wei was nearby and we made faces to each other while chatting. HAHA.
While we were talking, cutie noticed a mouse crossing the road.
Mostly i'll be very excited when she told me about her..
but it's different now.
Things changed.
All i replied was just a simple "owhh.."
den back to the topic we chat cos i don wanna get depressed over this.
She saw me and tend to say hi but i just glared at her..
And she went to find the cheap lass.. F***
I pretended that i was so into the conversation with yu chiou in front of her.
When yu chiou's mommy arrived,
i called out for my beloved mummy for accompany.
but too bad Andy reached and mummy sort of being paise.
I tried not to look at the her while leaving.
She was still with the cheap lass..
and I'm really hurt.

Walked along the main road towards Andy's car.
It was already 1.15pm.
Very late indeed.
Missed the chance to have lunch with Andy.
Andy went home after receiving gifts from me.. =[
and i spent the rest of my valentine's day sleeping..
how unromantic.
Zzzzz..
Many people were celebrating in gurney in the afternoon.
I'm excluded and i wished that i were there too.

08.30pm, 14/02/2009..
BM tuition with laicheng!
She continued to tease me. =(
Dear laicheng said i that celebrated valentine's day 5 times with 5 different people?
hng~
Throughout the tuition, we joked and laughed non stop.
The teacher couldn't even stand us.
Nyahahaha.

Something happened when i was about to go to bed.
Wansing called.
She cried and muffled words over the phone.
I barely know wad she's saying. Just guessing around.
Parental prob over love again.
=S
It somehow angered me when she told me that she broke up with yee tsin with an excuse that includes me.
SERIOUS TROUBLE.
how can she over-reacted like that?!!!!
I held back my anger and comforted her.
I told her what to do, partially being pek cek because of wad she did.
Eventually, she stopped crying and hung up to call yee tsin.
Andy called me after that.
We chat for a while and laughed the crazy one for her stupidity..
It's really brainless and childish for such act.
We ended our conversation and went to bed..
That's how my Valentine's Day ended.
It's gonna be replaced on some other days. =]

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE

Happy birthday YuWen~

Apologies to my twin,
cos u've been played around like a ball by EVIL us..
But hopefully you'd love all those surprises and presents.
We girls heart u forever!

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Firstly, Yuwen's a pity.
I shoot her nearly for the whole day, without "realising" it.
And lai cheng and i even asked christine to wish her this morning. Nyahahaha.
Her very first surprise.
Very geli indeed. Laughs*

Add maths lesson sucks.
ewwwwwww~
Damn hate that si lao yi teaching me. tasteless woman.
I went to kebajikan and slept there during her period. booo sama engkau..

Pic of the day..
YuWen's birthday presents.
*spot both green and black coloured tees!
(It's from US)

My yesterday....

Happy birthday Jlan~

You're...  
seventeen!
[sorry for arriving late and leaving so early...]

*btw hope that u like that PADINI tee.
[ i chose it eh u know. ehehe]

Okay,
Dad dropped me at adventist hosp around 3.45pm.
For some idiotic reason. wtf.
Was there for about 15 mins.
[aaaaaaa....!]
I hate hospitals!!!!

Around 4pm, walked to gurney using the same old road...
and passed by the house with a golden plated no.9..
Liming's house!
hehehe.. guess what?
I heard someone singing in there~
HAHAHAHAHAHA

It didn't take me long to walk there.
Popped up in redbox to join em soon after that.
And thanks to leemei that sambut-ed me.
someone was screaming my name from the inside of the dark room.
HAHA..
it was pei qi!

There were lots of pp in there.
mostly were people from our school.
knows and don't knows.
zhao xuan was in there too..
didn't see her for a very long time d.
and some of em even came as far as...butterworth???! wow
No singing for me in there though.
*cough cough..
plus, i laughed my ass off while someone ended a song.
amazingly, she managed to reach the high pitch note!
big claps for you, DIVA.



most of em left redbox around 5pm and went back to the hotel.
But I went to somewhere else to searched for a "particular" shop in gurney.
and too bad there was no such service for me there. duhhhhh
=(
also, it cost a lot.

next, PADINI..
for jlan's tee.
fooled around inside, messing all the clothes.

i told the VVIP that i'll lao nua when i see clothes.
BAHAHAHA
=S

and then.. Quiksiver.
for the member card thingy.
As i've expected, "scoldings" from VVIP.
ended up with nothing.
empty handed.

next stop, g hotel.
met someone unexpectedly on our way there.
It was chai ying.
They crapped and..
I just stood there smiling dumbly, like a DUMMY.
Went into the hotel room for a few mins.
All i did was:
exploring the toilet, screaming in it and came out with embarrassment.
blushed*












Then, ...
Coffee Bean to quench our thirst for coffee.
ooo la laa...
I ordered some HOT mocha. my fav.
and i got a coffeebean card for only rm25.










*showing off~

Well, that was my last stop..
=(
Very sad indeed. No pics today. not even a single one.


Jlan's cupcakes..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Lee Mei~
sorry for not wishing you on 12am cos i overslept for 12 hours.
gosh.. im a pig!

But surprisingly daddy did not get angry.
he waited for me [till about 10am] for me to get ready to go to school.
and i got wet even before i walked into the school.
T.T
saw jlan while walking into the school...
followed by aherm aherm aherm**
(someone who "thinks that, admit that" i'm part of her life)

I went for the tedious civic class..
My writings are so awful for the very first time.
Like a 3 year old..
After my civic class, i went to find the birthday gal.
heee.. so happy to see her lerr..
chat a lot..
and also give her her birthday presents..
really hope that she likes them.
xD
then....
i went opp the school and waited for nee at 7-11.
a bunch of malay guys approached and teased me.
They were so GROSS!
who will ever want u guys...

we went to i.e cafe.
i ordered carrot juice with yogurt, some desserts and noodles..
and i spent all my money on food. T.T
bo lui d.
pok d.

later on i went to nee's house to study.
But it became "going to her house to 'study' instead"...
Had a great time there..
her mummy came back around 5pm.
oops~
but she did not ask anything. weee~
but later on they quarrelled...
and kept asking each other to shut up...
T_T

nee bought me a bottle of potato chips before i go home.
In the bus, yu chiou and winnie even helped me finish the chips.
but xiang yenn they all refused to eat it.

mommy's T280i came today.
It was nice but...
to me, it's kinda bey iong mia.
So i ain't interested to it...
but my bro was different..
He is so addicted to it though the keypads were so damn hard to press..
sampat..
p/s: wont be appearing in school for lessons till 29th October.
Miss me ya, gals!

There were two things that made me happy today..
Homemade sphagetti
- It was the first time that someone is willing to cook for me.
And it was filled with my fav button mushrooms. =D
Mouth watering and ample for me..
Everyone's envious
w910i

- i got my dream phone!
i got my dream phone..! yay
i don care whether it is red in colour or wad..
I'm just very happy and touched!

THANK YOU

This was one of my best morning ever~

I woke up at 5am...
since i promised someone to go to school early and have fun~
but to my horror,...

I MISSED MY BUS!

i was so worried..
daddy was in malacca and there was nobody available to fetch me to school.
but thanks to mummy for "chasing" the bus along Yap Chor Ee road..
I was so touched because of wad my dear mummy and bus uncle did for me~
gamdongnya.. i nearly cried.. xD
and.. guess wad...
the form 3 girls on the bus had PMR that day..!!
because of me, they reached school on 7.05am instead of 6.45am..
oh my gosh!!

i went straight away to the counter and slept there..
but someone woke me up not long after that.
HAHA!
it was so paise to let u see my watery + sleepy eyes...
we walked round and round the school...
laughed and laughed for silly stuffs..
and we somemore saw those two twins
(one big sized one and one small sized one)

around 9am..
we decided to take a bus to go to prangin mall..
but on our way outta school..

i saw that fcuking LBS

immediately i knew things were not right..!!!
she even flashed a fake smile to me and said hi to me...
i changed my mind and switched direction to the MPPP garden.
It was so stupid to do so.. but i had no choice..
I even touched a spider web accidentally. YUCKS!
cancelled my plan to go to GURNEY immediately..
it scares me to think that i'll be caught for the second time. fcuk off!

After walking outta school,
we went to goodall n changed our clothes..
U know, it's so ugly to wear the pinafore and walk everywhere in penang..
we went to onestop and bought some food there..
a big bottle of apple juice and also two Apple Sourz..
my fav.
but too bad we were not allowed to eat on rapid.. T.T
but when we reached prangin, we waited 45 mins for the next bus..
cos U101 was always so crowded with those kinda people..
and it will be very scary to wait alone there.. those pp seemed to stare at u all the time.
T.T

headed to tanjung bungah beach after that..
we got off the bus somewhere near Dalat International School and crossed the road..
awwww... Paradise Beach Hotel..
my fav.
we went to the beach through the public beach site.
muahahaha..
the security guard taught us that a few months ago! bahaha..
i was surprised to find out that the beach was kinda peaceful and quiet in the morning.
without any people going out the sea for water sports..
it was around 10.20am by then..
we sat on the bench and u told me u brought SLIPPERS for me..
xD
and u gave me the PINK ROXY one.
awwww..
thank you so much... muacks..

we walked to the other side of the beach and threw sea shells into the sea.
I was so CHA in it.
T.T
couldn't blame me..
it was my very first time..
=S
it was quite boring at the beach. cos there was nothing there..
excapt for some dog's LIVE SHOW for us to see.
It was disgusting by the way.
=S

walked back to the bus stand and waited for U101..
we planned to got off at sunrise but the bus turned into another road.
T.T
so.... we went to Domino's pizza for lunch. xD
the pizza tasted GREAT!
n i ate even more subun-ly than u. [u really looked like hello kitty lerr..]
Laugh die me. *haha
but u were so mischievious and started pouring chilli powder on my pizza..
T.T
SPICYY
I had my revenge back..
but u were unlucky and i poured onto your whole body! yay!
i win i win i win..

walked back schoool after that.
It was kinda tiring for the rest of the day..
but i enjoyed myself pretty much.

Traffic warden's annual farewell

Sunday was such a boring day..
I nearly died.
T___________T
but thank god monday wasn't exactly that boring..

Around 12 something, the doorbell rang..
hehe..
i knew who was coming to pick me up.. (happy!)
we chatted in the room, did a few things and headed off to gp..
mom was shaking her head seeing tht i was so happy..
and when i went out of the house i was like siao lang..
HAHAHAHA

Walked around the mall..
Had some desserts in wang kok..
Met up wen n jun there..
Jun became "rounder"..
but she's still vry cute.. =)
Went to Studio R and saw a PINK REEBOK SPORTS BRA..
HAHAHAHA
i love it.. cos it's pink..
rm89.90
and there was a vry cute baby adidas sports shoes too..

Met up wen ltr on and fetched her to sch..
We had a few sweets together..
The sch looked scary and creepy..
The farewell.. as usual.. BORING!!

The Maid got angry because ah nee came along with me as an uninvited guest..
She even told LiMing she wana kill her if she eats anything..
Wad's the problem with u?!
Fcuk..
Same thing happened when puiyin and cheowying came..
But later on she gave up and sat beside cheow ying..
GOSH!
GMC was the worst..
He brought along his family..
brought along three big tupperwares and scooped all the leftovers..
GROSS..
he even used plastic bags to store the food.
omg..
r u so poor? u got everything for free!
and for the food that we've paid..
unfair!

I did not take photo with LJ cos she was busy..
hope she doesn't blame me for tht..
sry..

i had a great day.
just because of u~

I don't wanna lose her..

U r one of my best friends..
I can't lose u just like this..
how can i...
i don't wan the history to repeat again..
but i can't stop myself..
i just don't feel like talking to u....
whenever i see u, i feel a sense of fakeness..
to me,
I'M NOT IMPORTANT TO YOU anymore..

We've known each other last year..
around June..
our interests match..
Three of us..
Eunice, u and me were always together..
we talked abt nearly everything..
but then things changed this year..
Eunice went to Aussie..
u went to a better class..
and that's where my nightmares begin.
___________________________________

U kept giving me disappointments..
I tried my best to accept that this is U..
but i can't.

Sometimes..
i'll wait for you by the stairs..
i know i'll surely look very stupid..
and when i saw you...
We said HI..
i walked beside u...
but u acted as i'm invisible..
u keep joking and chatting non stop with yr frens from yr class..
who do u think i'm?
u never wait even if i'm behind u..
u always left me..
turning me even moody..

or..
whenever i find u to chat with u..
u always left me when yr frens frm yr class call u..
do u have to do this to me..?
as if u r someone ON CALL or something...
but u r not..
and u never realise how much it affects my feelings..

Maybe i'm just..
not important to you anymore..
since u once said that frens not from your class ain't so close to u and could not be yr frens anymore..
whatever...
I'm sick of that...

I realised that you r someone who doesn't understand pp's feelings..
u did not tell me about the case that made u cry...
u said u wanted to..
but..
u lied to me instead..
little do u know..
i've known almost part of it..
and i understand that u r secretive..
but all the things u did..
i can't believe that it's u anymore...
do u treat me as your friend?
or.. someone who irritates you?????

First love isn't something to be played of..
Once u lost it..
u lost it forever..
do u know that???
and do u know how bad is that to hurt the feelings of pp in love??
maybe to separate a pair of couples..
maybe to cheat someone you love..
or even to yr FRENS...

I regret what i've done to my ownself..
and when u know how deep u hurt yrself and that person..
u regret..
but it's too late...
i took months to forget the pain..
and u?
i don't think u will feel anything even if the rumours are true..
I can't belive that it's u...
Did u changed or what??
R u that brave enough to kiss and hold yr own best friend's bf..
haix...
but u just don't know that the rumours spread everywhere....

but then u told me that u already changed yr target..
and it's someone younger than u..
and both of u never see each other before..
and after a few days chatting on msn..
he fell for u and u fell for him?
FUNNY..

that's not love k?
that's just an illusion...
but i don't think u actually believe what i said...
and even gave me advice on not accepting THAT MOUSE.
swt..
i know what to do la k..

* please refer to BUSY DAY and scroll down..

Same thoughts

It is already 2.20am..
But right after i had closed the msn tab,
I felt like posting a blog over here..
I'm js..
touched...

2 years had already passed..
but i couldn't believe we stil had the same thoughts after all..
mentally..
finally, i had found someone who understands exactly how i feel..

Ever since year end of form 2, we seldom talk to each other anymore..
partly was because the way i felt towards Jessica..

Although we only managed to chat with each other for several hours..
but i really appreciated that..
u understood my feelings...!!
and i understood yours..
and the most amazing thing is..
we have the same thoughts..

I saved the conversation after u offlined..
Thank you for being my listener..
Thank you, Chin Tee...

Busy day

I woke up around 8am this morning..
Feeling extremely tired becos of insufficient sleeping hours..
I prepared myself and dad fetched me to school..

10am..
I got off dad's car in front of the 7eleven shop lots and went into the school..
As i was walking slowly into the school..
I imagined that it was like 2 years ago..
but things were pretty much different back at those times..
My mind started to wander,
and quickly,
i distracted myself to not think about the past anymore...
Saw yeou ching and serene together as i walked by the new washrooms..

10.15am..
After placing my stuffs in blk gerakan,
i walked to b8.
Alone, again..
But on my way.. i met "someone"..
argh.. guess i'm not so lucky..
That "witch" talked to me as if nth had happened..
and she kept on asking things abt my mom..nee..myself..
she even asked me to find her if i face any probs..
Okay.. I faced a lot of probs..
but i won't tell u.. BOOHOO
I spoke as if i'm a timid primary school girl..
But at least i tried to look into her eyes and talked to her confidently.
I dono y..
But i dare not look into her eyes..
I guess i was afraid..
[But why?!!! she's js a bitch n nth to be afraid of]
She affected my mood pretty much..
arghhhh...
I felt as if she was there to demerit me for the 2nd time.

10.20am..
Finally, I saw LEE MEI!!
=)
vry happy to see her..
We could only chat for a while, cos my civic class was abt to start..

Civic class..
awwwwwww... boring!
There was the man lady, againnnnn...
I couldn't stand her!

11.10am..
I dono how many times yeou ching and su zhen had walked pass my class.
Their teacher let them off as early as 11am..
unfair.. T.T
they waited for me til my class dismiss n i went upstairs with yeou ching to take her sch bag.
I was surprised that su zhen was eventually so hardworking..
reading BIOLOGY..
i suddenly came to realise that..
This is what i don't have in myself, and it caused my grades to drop..
haihx..

11.20am..
As usual, i'll be yeou ching's listener abt her probs on relationships.
We had our lunch in mcD and went back school after that..
by then it was already 12.15pm..

12.45pm...
I had my hair cut in the new toilet..
I had no choice but to cut my precious hair because so tht stupid asshole..
The shape is gone..
T.T
But i was happy since it looks ok..
Thanks Jlan!

1.15pm..
I din go into the stadium cos i was late...
So i went back into blk gerakan to pack my stuffs..
After that, i stood beside the stairs to wait for wen and lai cheng...
=) We joked a little... as usual

** haihx.. lets just start off with the main point:

6.55pm..
School dismissual..
I went to find ZW in physics lab.
We walked out the school without talking much..
[actually, i don know how this happened.. since the science fair, we sort of.. have a gap between us]
She doesn't seem to realise it..
since she has her new frens in her class..
unlike me..
life is awful for me in S4C..
My classmates don show any sign of dislike towards me..
But to me,
me n my classmates are totally like..
different human beings frm different dimensions.
They treated me well, they like me..
but I......
i'm sorry..
we r just very very different...
T_______T

7.30pm..
We had our dinner in Goodall, ordered Sphagetti together...
But then..
ZW's dad appeared..
and things really gone slightly wrong after that..
ZW left me to talk with her dad at another table..
and then, approached me and said that her dad asked her to follow him back..
and also told her that she did not need to go for ttn that night..
I was disappointed..
but i acted calm and smiled..
T___T
i said:" go ahead.. its ok for me."
In my mind..
i thought: It'll be okay.. don't worry..
It's my first time for that BM ttn..
I walked alone along the pedestrian pathway to the tuition centre..
I was a bit confused cos i dono wad to do at all..
haix..

Worst..
when i smsed Li Ming she told me she was not coming cos she suffered frm gastric that afternoon.
but thank god.. yanli came..
but my mood was already vry throughout the whole tuition..
Abt 10 o'clock.. i went home..
Mom was angry when i told her wad had happened..
The night before wed, TUES..
my mom phoned ZW's mom to ask for her help..
but she told my mom that alien will be fetching her daughter home..
so she said if i wana go home with them, i need to tell alien abt that..
I said ok..
but then... thanks to daddy for fetching me..
and thanks to my hp..

Imagined if i had already ask alien for help..
and then she left me like that.. last minute..
vry paiseh k..
den if dad did not know wad happened..
he is not going to fetch me cos he thought that i already had transport..
and will go to their house and wait there instead..
and.. what if.. I'M WITHOUT MY PHONE???!
and lastly.. i'm new to that tuition class..
nobody tells me wad to do and wad not to do there..

I recalled about the events happening last year..
I was supposed to spent my day with Eunice happily..
and go to prangin with wen after school
but i was so angry because of the tennis stuffs that caused my plans to be canceled..
I din talk much with her that day..
Because u wana arrange yr plans to Japan.. u canceled mine??!
and at last..
it rained that afternoon...
kek si ki..
tennis oso canceled ki..
but u wont know how i feel..
hng!

and also.. a day in May's holiday..
I was left alone in qb for hours just to acc u for just a few mins..
anything can happen to me..
and yr mom..
i think she refused to fetch me..
i dare not tell my parents and mok abt that..
i don wan them to worry and..
got angry somemore..

"It's just a sense of selfishness.." someone told me that.

She wanted to chat with me on msn..
but i refused to reply..

Am i important to u anymore?? maybe not...
like what u've said last year..
frens who r close to u r ani considered FRENS..
and u told me last year that yr frens in the whole world is just me and eunice..
I was so shocked..
cos its so unfair to the others..
how abt other pp???
and this year..
u showed me what u meant la..
im not yr fren anymore..

That night..
my mom told me to study hard..
Our family isn't really wealthy as theirs..
It's normal if pp look down on us...
cos of our simple life..
I felt hatred growing in my heart right on that moment..
I promised myself to do well in this coming exam..
But it turned to stress and i cried..
but i slept well that night...
after my loupo's consolation..
maybe pp will think that i'm just being emotional..
but if it is u..
I don't think u'll feel nothin at all

They told me not to pay hopes that are too high on pp like this..
She is one of my best friends..
but why do things like this have to happen..??
It's so unfair..

First day of holiday..!
yooHoo..
i was kinda down since the morning..
cos i was so slow like a turtle and mom got fed up of me..
and started the nagging..
Then when she realised that she forgot to bring her hp..
things got worst in the car..
haix..

By the time i walked inside the school..
I was already vry moody..
Went to find lee mei to lend her my tugasan harian..
vry happy to see her, although we had not seen each other for just 2 days..
miss her nia.
=)
and she saw my hairstyle!
haha...
It was a little weird in the beginning but then i fell in love with it..
I don mind having short hair.. as long as it's nice..
Thanks to Edmund for trimming my hair for me.

The sms i received really hurts me a lot..
I guess i'm just being too emo..
I felt so bad and bey kam buan.
When i'm in the hall watching drama..
I could not concentrate at all..
I could do nothing.. cos i didn't wana siasui myself..
It was not yr fault.. and I knew it..
but... I js couldn't withstand the pressure and started dripping my tears in the dark..
right beside u..
i keep wiping and wiping as the tears rolled down..
and..
Good thing u did not realise it..
I did not cry hard..
cos it will certainly spoil my image..
I just ignored everything u said and remained steady..
All wana do is..
whenever u turned to me..
no matter i'm sad or happy..
i'll show u my happy face.. or js a simple smile..
I did not talk much cos part of me was already in the melancholic state..

Thanks for hurting me..
It made me tougher..

Happy to see something tht originated from the longkang when i was down..
I dreamt of a bunch of mice yesterday nite.. wonder y.
"funny"~

最近一直都看到你那么伤心..
自己也跟着伤心起来..

但，我却帮不了什么...
因为我与你见面的时间少得很...
所以，
对不起~

从以前到现在..
我们俩..
不管是在感情上面对什么问题..
都总是会互相听对方诉说，
然后，慢慢地..
开导对方..

但因为有“她”的出现..
我选择默默的离去..
离开有你，有她的地方...
[不管自己又是多么的寂寞...]

因为..
在我心中，你开心就好了..
朋友，对你而言..
不比“她”来得重要...

就因为这样..
我们的友情也就变淡了...


“她”

其实，我没有讨厌过她...

只是..
我不明白为什么她总是在吃我的醋..
一看到我跟你说话..
或是走在一起，
就大发脾气...
哭..
跺脚...

还到处“宣传”我的坏话..
在我的背后把我说得好惨好惨...

我到底做错了什么??!
我是无辜的....
我只是你的好友而已..
又不是要从“她”身上夺走你..
干吗要这样对待我？！！！

我忍了她好多年..
能让的...
我都已让给了她..
可是..
她偏偏就是那么的贪心...
那么的自私...
还越来越过分...

（T____________________T）

遇到这种人..
好惨

- 她告诉过我，
她想当我的朋友...
但每一次,
她都没有认真地说过..
只是随便说说而已..
每说一次，就利用我一次..
到最后..

我连"她”的信息都不看了...
电话也不接了..

因为“她”只是一个自私的骗子。

- 在我最失落的时候,
“她”告诉我..
"I'm also one of your friend"
可是,没到几分钟..
“她”就出卖了我.
这算什么朋友啊？
这种友情..
打死我，我都不会要...

- 以前的"她”..
一整天只会哭..
还一直要我安慰“她”..
那时的我，自己都已搞不定了..
烦死了~
但却因为可怜“她”..
在“她”需要人陪的时候..
陪着“她”...

这些...你应该也忘了吧？
自私鬼...
——————————————————————————————————————————

最近..
那个可恶的“她”..
深深的伤害了你...

本人是不会原谅“她”的...

但你...
你会接受回“她”吗？
你会听我说的话吗？

我知道我不是你老妈..
也没什么权利为你决定什么..

但我会尽我的本分..
一直陪着你渡过这段痛苦的时段...

其实，
我真的不希望你会这样继续下去..
让你自己受苦..
因为..
我不想看到你再受任何的伤害了...

[虽然你一直对我说:"她开心就好，我不重要."
但我还是很不甘心，
因为你没露出真感情，而我也知道..
你只是在逞强。]

tmr i'll be seeing u..
js hope to cheer u up..
i'll always be there whenever u need me..
friends forever~

The sentence written by you..

The saddest thing in the world is loving someone who used to love you...

Monday:
I was feeling down throughout Monday afternoon..
but i soon realised that life is short, and it's not worth it for me to be sad..
I distracted myself by talking and chatting with friends..
Hui Ting gave me hugs as support..
I would like to say "thanks" to you guys for being so caring towards me..
I regained my usual mood after recess time in school..

Tuesday:
After reaching school, chatted lots with Li Ming, facing the field..
Quite happy throughout the day..
Except about events that happened later on..
I had tuition after school.. which is situated near sunshine farlim..
so.. i followed huiting home..
we took pics on the bus but every of them were blurred.. T_________T
later on, li jun n jing wen told us about the tweety.
[I hate tweeties..]
as they were talking abt her,
tht tweety suddenly approached me and asked lots of dumb ques..
she tried to befriended me in a "friendly" way...
but i was so shocked as my hp and comb are just on my lap..
[jingwen and li jun told me tht she was vry bad..
and all of her classmates were being demerit by her..swt.. i
wonder.. "r u being tooooo responsible???!!!!"]
and felt a strong sense of disgust towards her..
she even asked me my school no. and i dono y i was so stupid to tell her..
i might say tht she's a bit hiao.. she sighed when i dono who is she.. please..
who will ever wana know u, aunty?
lijun and jingwen distracted her after that.. and by tht time.. i got off the bus..
I felt tht i'm so stupid after that.. at winnie yap's class..
i am starting to dislike her teachings.. dono y

Wednesday morning:
Civic class..
I was preparing for my lisan when chew chie asked me whether i wana go for class d anot..
Went to b8 together with her..
We don't really talk much.. Mostly because of insufficient time..
But she's really someone nice.. =]
huiting prepared cookies for me and yihying.. cookies with brown sugar. Yummy..
After having my lunch with them, met up liming in the dentistry room..
it was a boring day..

Friday:
Woke up early.. Around 7.15am after having a bad dream..
Cycled to Fern's house..
There was a lot of cars... I tried to becareful while cycling..
But then, a motorbike suddenly drove past me..
I was shocked and I stopped my bicycle by braking..
But crash on to a Kelisa instead.. haihx.. I did not get injured, but my legs hurt..
After then, I nearly got bang by a Gen II.. stupid me..
Reached Lavinia soon after that.. I felt hard to breathe all in a sudden.
While i'm in the lift, i saw "stars"..
The lift's door opened at the 9th floor and i went out to sit at the stairs for some air..
I was pale when i reached Fern's house.. I nearly fainted after that..
And i even vomited..
I sweat a lot and my whole body was wet i guess... It was so horrible..
Fern said tht i mayb having low blood pressure.. I don't know..
Cos mostly the food i ate is not really healthy.. And i don't really eat meat u see..
So i maybe lacking some kind of nutrients in my body..
or maybe.. as Fern said.. I'm facing stress..

I really appreciated what Fern told me..
It was really helpful..
I should be the one taking care of myself from now onwards..
cos nobody will be helping me about tht..
No matter what stress or problems i am facing, i need to find my own solutions to cope with it..
And.. about my health..
I think i should go for a check up or something..
I don't think i'm that strong already after the operation..
I became weak.. and eventually... no strength..
I hate that.. I love outdoor activities.. but now i use to get tired vry easily.. sobx..
She told me to eat an egg daily..
to provide myself with proteins..
also, to take some multi vitamins and iron pills...

Guess i'm not going to school again today..

Cousin Shang was confirmed to be having MS.. (a kind of rare disease)

She had not been to school since a week ago..
It's vry pityful as there's a risk that she maybe handicapped..
She will not recover anymore..
I know how boring it is to be in the hospital for so long..
without having friends..
without entertainment and leisure..
But for now i still can't visit her yet.. cos my body is still very weak..
I may get sick if i go to the hospital.. and btw, it was the place where grandma died..
I hope that she'll be toug to face that in life.. although that will be hard..
Gambateh..

Guess whose birthday was it? Its yours.
Hahahax

I was worried tht i was unable to go to your house..
cos of my parents' mood.
Sorry for letting u to be quite mad...
Reached your house around 11 something..
surprised to see all those new furniture..
They are indeed.. vry nice..

In your house..
we chatted a lots..
laughed a lot too..
i gave you yr birthday presents..
hope tht u like them.. =P
and also, happy being 19.
U even wore the aLi tee i gave u.. =P

For lunch, we went to mc donald's in paya terubong.. it was 1.53 pm then..
its ok since im a fast food addict..
(too bad im having sorethroat right now.. sobx..)
pass by some assholes' houses on the way..
parked at the right spot n got off from the car.
we sat outside the restaurant as i was afraid of being cold..
staying inside an air-conditioned room made me tremble hard..
after eating.. it was already 3 something..
went back to yr home again to give yr bro his food..

Then, our minds were blank as we dunno where we should go..
Penang is so small..

shopping? it is so common.. i shop few times a week so its nothing special shopping..
redbox? just both of us.. boring
going for a movie? we can do that anytime..
stay at home? no way..
Penang Hill? Its so hot up there..
Beach? oh yea..

so we went out of the house..
n got into the car once again.. it was getting late.. (going to be 4)
i felt so excited.... ahaha
u brought me to lg first so tht i can changed tht tee for u..
i thought that u were bringing me to Island plaza or maybe just Gurney.. but..
we were actually going to Paradise Sandy Beach Hotel.. omg..
happy~
We spent around one and a half hour on the beach..
We walked to the private beach owned by the hotel.
U even wrote HAPPY BIRTDAY for yrself on the sand.. without a "H", so cute.
Really hope to try out some water sports but time really flies vry fast..
U said tht maybe we should try out activities like camping on the beach..
yea, good idea..
maybe some other days..

T_____________T
It was really a wonderful time being with u on the beach..
The sea breeze.. The sea water.. everything..
It was so sweet and nice.
After taking photos and playing on the beach, we went to a small hut to have some coconut water..
The Labu Labi and Family hut..
the coconut was extremely huge..
and u know wad.. it was the last coconut for us! hahaha

Piano Exam

i woke up around 7.30am in the morning and started to practice my exam pieces and scales.
it was surprising that i didn't even feel nervous at all..

Dad came home n he fetched me to the Copthorne Orchid Hotel for exam around 8.45am..
after reaching the hotel, we went in straight to the lobby..
the receptionist told us to go to the 18th floor as it was the venue for piano examination..
dad n i waited for quite a while in the waiting room..
i looked out to the deep blue sea to calm myself down..

And finally, my name was called..
i met my piano examiner from UK, Miss Susan Clark..
she is a sweet looking lady, with a pair of watery blue eyes..
i love her eyes so much! its the first time for me to see someone with blue eyes.. i guess..

the examination went on.. "smoothly" for 15 minutes..
n sometimes i couldn't understand wad she said as it was thick with UK's accent..
After the aural test, the exam was over..
OMG..
it was so fast..

did not feel like going to school so i stayed home..
- nee came to my house to do some computering stuffs..
-slept for HOURS cos of tiredness
-went to BJ with mom at night

=]
tdy i woke up around 8.30am..
feeling happy? maybe..
i packed my sch stuffs.. bathed.. n i found tht there was no breakfast for me..
hng!
i ate all the omelette left on the table n dad called. He asked me to prepare to go to sch..
i was really hungry..
den.. when i reached sch.. its already 10.10am.. lalalala..
went to b8.. n it was totally like an oven..
i was feeling extremely moody because of tht..

after tht the stupid civic teacher came..
she's such a moron..
her teachings sux..
n it ain't interesting at all.. n it was so boring..
i gt irritated n keep screaming for help.. haha. i even screamed "I HATE HER" during her class..
she was the one tht came in late, n yet she wanted to delay our time to 11.30am.. grr..
i felt like killing her.. i was so damn angry.
wen was waiting for me outside b8..
we went to find liming at the ttn centre and then... went to gaigai..

since all of us had not eaten any breakfast, we went to Tainan to mammam..
on the way, a malay saw us thought tht we r traffic polices n "buka saman" on him.. but we din cai him anyway..
haha.. it was so funny.
i ordered a bowl of udon noodles with a cutie fishball inside.. it's so cute..
=P
but too bad it made us bloated.. n i felt like puking instead of enjoying the meal..
we walked around..
n we saw qm.. sux.. big mouth..
went in mercury.. there's a lot of stuffs i wanted to buy..
one of it was a 2pm tee which cost ONLY rm26.90.. omg.. n its quite nice..
but bcos of insufficient time..i only manage to buy something for someone.. =)
i cant wait to give her tht thing..
we walked back..

We chat lots of things on our way back. laughing along the way.. n its kinda fun..

den.. when i saw wanyi in stadium.. i told her wad happened in da bus ytd when she was sleeping..
the phor tay mia really wuliao, n cheap..
i know she looks pretty.. but tht type of jian4 mia pretty so,
jian4 mia pretty= ugly..
n pua ke.. she tot she's cool.. but its so yucks to even look at her..
her sis oso.. vomit*
ill take revenge one.. hahahaha

during lessons, its so bored..
T____T
especially add maths period.. i dono wad tht laoyi was kapping abt..
grr..
finally, recess! din go to eat.. but js walk lai walk ki..
n saw pp tht im not suppose to see..
felt uneasy..

ponteng to wen's class after tht..
for a while nia.. cos she vry GUAI wana copy hw..
haha.. i felt rather sien during 2 periods when thr was no teacher in cls..
cos its hot.. n i cant sleep..

last two periods r biology..
saw my lou po! hahahaha
wished her happy birthday.. vry happy to see her anyway...
we chatted a little.. den everyone was looking at me frm the bio lab.. swt
cos im the only one tht was chatting so happily outside..
dono wad r they looking at pun.. siao.. din see before hior..

went to the toilet five mins before dismissual..
angeline scared tiok me n i screamed.. gai nia..
haha
n when im in the toilet wanyi poured water on me.
omg
luckily kena a little bit nia.. shit her.. haha

i walked with wen using another staircase cos we still kap bey liao..
=] ok.. ill go with u guys if u wana shop on mon.
i will always be available. yoohoo...

after i got up to bus. the kiap eh was beside me.
she was chatting with her friend abt boiboi stuffs..
n i found out tht she's so damn hiao.. yucks..
n now since she is currently HAIRLESS in da mean time.. it really made her ugly..
sux..
i hate boys in a way.. so i think she's hiao..
n she doesn't have taste in choosing bags.. no fashion sense.. boo
all the bags she used r imitations..
n i really hate tht..

after reaching home...
my mom n my bro were in the kitchen..
busying..
my bro wanted to learn cooking.. so my mom taught him.
both of them sot sot mia..
cooking fried rice..
for almost.... hours..
this was wad the maid told me.. hahahaha
n u noe y....?
my bro wanted to imitate wang dong cheng in ISWAK II