First day of holiday..!
yooHoo..
i was kinda down since the morning..
cos i was so slow like a turtle and mom got fed up of me..
and started the nagging..
Then when she realised that she forgot to bring her hp..
things got worst in the car..
haix..

By the time i walked inside the school..
I was already vry moody..
Went to find lee mei to lend her my tugasan harian..
vry happy to see her, although we had not seen each other for just 2 days..
miss her nia.
=)
and she saw my hairstyle!
haha...
It was a little weird in the beginning but then i fell in love with it..
I don mind having short hair.. as long as it's nice..
Thanks to Edmund for trimming my hair for me.

The sms i received really hurts me a lot..
I guess i'm just being too emo..
I felt so bad and bey kam buan.
When i'm in the hall watching drama..
I could not concentrate at all..
I could do nothing.. cos i didn't wana siasui myself..
It was not yr fault.. and I knew it..
but... I js couldn't withstand the pressure and started dripping my tears in the dark..
right beside u..
i keep wiping and wiping as the tears rolled down..
and..
Good thing u did not realise it..
I did not cry hard..
cos it will certainly spoil my image..
I just ignored everything u said and remained steady..
All wana do is..
whenever u turned to me..
no matter i'm sad or happy..
i'll show u my happy face.. or js a simple smile..
I did not talk much cos part of me was already in the melancholic state..

Thanks for hurting me..
It made me tougher..

Happy to see something tht originated from the longkang when i was down..
I dreamt of a bunch of mice yesterday nite.. wonder y.
"funny"~

最近一直都看到你那么伤心..
自己也跟着伤心起来..

但，我却帮不了什么...
因为我与你见面的时间少得很...
所以，
对不起~

从以前到现在..
我们俩..
不管是在感情上面对什么问题..
都总是会互相听对方诉说，
然后，慢慢地..
开导对方..

但因为有“她”的出现..
我选择默默的离去..
离开有你，有她的地方...
[不管自己又是多么的寂寞...]

因为..
在我心中，你开心就好了..
朋友，对你而言..
不比“她”来得重要...

就因为这样..
我们的友情也就变淡了...


“她”

其实，我没有讨厌过她...

只是..
我不明白为什么她总是在吃我的醋..
一看到我跟你说话..
或是走在一起，
就大发脾气...
哭..
跺脚...

还到处“宣传”我的坏话..
在我的背后把我说得好惨好惨...

我到底做错了什么??!
我是无辜的....
我只是你的好友而已..
又不是要从“她”身上夺走你..
干吗要这样对待我？！！！

我忍了她好多年..
能让的...
我都已让给了她..
可是..
她偏偏就是那么的贪心...
那么的自私...
还越来越过分...

（T____________________T）

遇到这种人..
好惨

- 她告诉过我，
她想当我的朋友...
但每一次,
她都没有认真地说过..
只是随便说说而已..
每说一次，就利用我一次..
到最后..

我连"她”的信息都不看了...
电话也不接了..

因为“她”只是一个自私的骗子。

- 在我最失落的时候,
“她”告诉我..
"I'm also one of your friend"
可是,没到几分钟..
“她”就出卖了我.
这算什么朋友啊？
这种友情..
打死我，我都不会要...

- 以前的"她”..
一整天只会哭..
还一直要我安慰“她”..
那时的我，自己都已搞不定了..
烦死了~
但却因为可怜“她”..
在“她”需要人陪的时候..
陪着“她”...

这些...你应该也忘了吧？
自私鬼...
——————————————————————————————————————————

最近..
那个可恶的“她”..
深深的伤害了你...

本人是不会原谅“她”的...

但你...
你会接受回“她”吗？
你会听我说的话吗？

我知道我不是你老妈..
也没什么权利为你决定什么..

但我会尽我的本分..
一直陪着你渡过这段痛苦的时段...

其实，
我真的不希望你会这样继续下去..
让你自己受苦..
因为..
我不想看到你再受任何的伤害了...

[虽然你一直对我说:"她开心就好，我不重要."
但我还是很不甘心，
因为你没露出真感情，而我也知道..
你只是在逞强。]

tmr i'll be seeing u..
js hope to cheer u up..
i'll always be there whenever u need me..
friends forever~

The sentence written by you..

The saddest thing in the world is loving someone who used to love you...

Monday:
I was feeling down throughout Monday afternoon..
but i soon realised that life is short, and it's not worth it for me to be sad..
I distracted myself by talking and chatting with friends..
Hui Ting gave me hugs as support..
I would like to say "thanks" to you guys for being so caring towards me..
I regained my usual mood after recess time in school..

Tuesday:
After reaching school, chatted lots with Li Ming, facing the field..
Quite happy throughout the day..
Except about events that happened later on..
I had tuition after school.. which is situated near sunshine farlim..
so.. i followed huiting home..
we took pics on the bus but every of them were blurred.. T_________T
later on, li jun n jing wen told us about the tweety.
[I hate tweeties..]
as they were talking abt her,
tht tweety suddenly approached me and asked lots of dumb ques..
she tried to befriended me in a "friendly" way...
but i was so shocked as my hp and comb are just on my lap..
[jingwen and li jun told me tht she was vry bad..
and all of her classmates were being demerit by her..swt.. i
wonder.. "r u being tooooo responsible???!!!!"]
and felt a strong sense of disgust towards her..
she even asked me my school no. and i dono y i was so stupid to tell her..
i might say tht she's a bit hiao.. she sighed when i dono who is she.. please..
who will ever wana know u, aunty?
lijun and jingwen distracted her after that.. and by tht time.. i got off the bus..
I felt tht i'm so stupid after that.. at winnie yap's class..
i am starting to dislike her teachings.. dono y

Wednesday morning:
Civic class..
I was preparing for my lisan when chew chie asked me whether i wana go for class d anot..
Went to b8 together with her..
We don't really talk much.. Mostly because of insufficient time..
But she's really someone nice.. =]
huiting prepared cookies for me and yihying.. cookies with brown sugar. Yummy..
After having my lunch with them, met up liming in the dentistry room..
it was a boring day..

Friday:
Woke up early.. Around 7.15am after having a bad dream..
Cycled to Fern's house..
There was a lot of cars... I tried to becareful while cycling..
But then, a motorbike suddenly drove past me..
I was shocked and I stopped my bicycle by braking..
But crash on to a Kelisa instead.. haihx.. I did not get injured, but my legs hurt..
After then, I nearly got bang by a Gen II.. stupid me..
Reached Lavinia soon after that.. I felt hard to breathe all in a sudden.
While i'm in the lift, i saw "stars"..
The lift's door opened at the 9th floor and i went out to sit at the stairs for some air..
I was pale when i reached Fern's house.. I nearly fainted after that..
And i even vomited..
I sweat a lot and my whole body was wet i guess... It was so horrible..
Fern said tht i mayb having low blood pressure.. I don't know..
Cos mostly the food i ate is not really healthy.. And i don't really eat meat u see..
So i maybe lacking some kind of nutrients in my body..
or maybe.. as Fern said.. I'm facing stress..

I really appreciated what Fern told me..
It was really helpful..
I should be the one taking care of myself from now onwards..
cos nobody will be helping me about tht..
No matter what stress or problems i am facing, i need to find my own solutions to cope with it..
And.. about my health..
I think i should go for a check up or something..
I don't think i'm that strong already after the operation..
I became weak.. and eventually... no strength..
I hate that.. I love outdoor activities.. but now i use to get tired vry easily.. sobx..
She told me to eat an egg daily..
to provide myself with proteins..
also, to take some multi vitamins and iron pills...

Guess i'm not going to school again today..

Cousin Shang was confirmed to be having MS.. (a kind of rare disease)

She had not been to school since a week ago..
It's vry pityful as there's a risk that she maybe handicapped..
She will not recover anymore..
I know how boring it is to be in the hospital for so long..
without having friends..
without entertainment and leisure..
But for now i still can't visit her yet.. cos my body is still very weak..
I may get sick if i go to the hospital.. and btw, it was the place where grandma died..
I hope that she'll be toug to face that in life.. although that will be hard..
Gambateh..

Guess whose birthday was it? Its yours.
Hahahax

I was worried tht i was unable to go to your house..
cos of my parents' mood.
Sorry for letting u to be quite mad...
Reached your house around 11 something..
surprised to see all those new furniture..
They are indeed.. vry nice..

In your house..
we chatted a lots..
laughed a lot too..
i gave you yr birthday presents..
hope tht u like them.. =P
and also, happy being 19.
U even wore the aLi tee i gave u.. =P

For lunch, we went to mc donald's in paya terubong.. it was 1.53 pm then..
its ok since im a fast food addict..
(too bad im having sorethroat right now.. sobx..)
pass by some assholes' houses on the way..
parked at the right spot n got off from the car.
we sat outside the restaurant as i was afraid of being cold..
staying inside an air-conditioned room made me tremble hard..
after eating.. it was already 3 something..
went back to yr home again to give yr bro his food..

Then, our minds were blank as we dunno where we should go..
Penang is so small..

shopping? it is so common.. i shop few times a week so its nothing special shopping..
redbox? just both of us.. boring
going for a movie? we can do that anytime..
stay at home? no way..
Penang Hill? Its so hot up there..
Beach? oh yea..

so we went out of the house..
n got into the car once again.. it was getting late.. (going to be 4)
i felt so excited.... ahaha
u brought me to lg first so tht i can changed tht tee for u..
i thought that u were bringing me to Island plaza or maybe just Gurney.. but..
we were actually going to Paradise Sandy Beach Hotel.. omg..
happy~
We spent around one and a half hour on the beach..
We walked to the private beach owned by the hotel.
U even wrote HAPPY BIRTDAY for yrself on the sand.. without a "H", so cute.
Really hope to try out some water sports but time really flies vry fast..
U said tht maybe we should try out activities like camping on the beach..
yea, good idea..
maybe some other days..

T_____________T
It was really a wonderful time being with u on the beach..
The sea breeze.. The sea water.. everything..
It was so sweet and nice.
After taking photos and playing on the beach, we went to a small hut to have some coconut water..
The Labu Labi and Family hut..
the coconut was extremely huge..
and u know wad.. it was the last coconut for us! hahaha

Piano Exam

i woke up around 7.30am in the morning and started to practice my exam pieces and scales.
it was surprising that i didn't even feel nervous at all..

Dad came home n he fetched me to the Copthorne Orchid Hotel for exam around 8.45am..
after reaching the hotel, we went in straight to the lobby..
the receptionist told us to go to the 18th floor as it was the venue for piano examination..
dad n i waited for quite a while in the waiting room..
i looked out to the deep blue sea to calm myself down..

And finally, my name was called..
i met my piano examiner from UK, Miss Susan Clark..
she is a sweet looking lady, with a pair of watery blue eyes..
i love her eyes so much! its the first time for me to see someone with blue eyes.. i guess..

the examination went on.. "smoothly" for 15 minutes..
n sometimes i couldn't understand wad she said as it was thick with UK's accent..
After the aural test, the exam was over..
OMG..
it was so fast..

did not feel like going to school so i stayed home..
- nee came to my house to do some computering stuffs..
-slept for HOURS cos of tiredness
-went to BJ with mom at night

=]
tdy i woke up around 8.30am..
feeling happy? maybe..
i packed my sch stuffs.. bathed.. n i found tht there was no breakfast for me..
hng!
i ate all the omelette left on the table n dad called. He asked me to prepare to go to sch..
i was really hungry..
den.. when i reached sch.. its already 10.10am.. lalalala..
went to b8.. n it was totally like an oven..
i was feeling extremely moody because of tht..

after tht the stupid civic teacher came..
she's such a moron..
her teachings sux..
n it ain't interesting at all.. n it was so boring..
i gt irritated n keep screaming for help.. haha. i even screamed "I HATE HER" during her class..
she was the one tht came in late, n yet she wanted to delay our time to 11.30am.. grr..
i felt like killing her.. i was so damn angry.
wen was waiting for me outside b8..
we went to find liming at the ttn centre and then... went to gaigai..

since all of us had not eaten any breakfast, we went to Tainan to mammam..
on the way, a malay saw us thought tht we r traffic polices n "buka saman" on him.. but we din cai him anyway..
haha.. it was so funny.
i ordered a bowl of udon noodles with a cutie fishball inside.. it's so cute..
=P
but too bad it made us bloated.. n i felt like puking instead of enjoying the meal..
we walked around..
n we saw qm.. sux.. big mouth..
went in mercury.. there's a lot of stuffs i wanted to buy..
one of it was a 2pm tee which cost ONLY rm26.90.. omg.. n its quite nice..
but bcos of insufficient time..i only manage to buy something for someone.. =)
i cant wait to give her tht thing..
we walked back..

We chat lots of things on our way back. laughing along the way.. n its kinda fun..

den.. when i saw wanyi in stadium.. i told her wad happened in da bus ytd when she was sleeping..
the phor tay mia really wuliao, n cheap..
i know she looks pretty.. but tht type of jian4 mia pretty so,
jian4 mia pretty= ugly..
n pua ke.. she tot she's cool.. but its so yucks to even look at her..
her sis oso.. vomit*
ill take revenge one.. hahahaha

during lessons, its so bored..
T____T
especially add maths period.. i dono wad tht laoyi was kapping abt..
grr..
finally, recess! din go to eat.. but js walk lai walk ki..
n saw pp tht im not suppose to see..
felt uneasy..

ponteng to wen's class after tht..
for a while nia.. cos she vry GUAI wana copy hw..
haha.. i felt rather sien during 2 periods when thr was no teacher in cls..
cos its hot.. n i cant sleep..

last two periods r biology..
saw my lou po! hahahaha
wished her happy birthday.. vry happy to see her anyway...
we chatted a little.. den everyone was looking at me frm the bio lab.. swt
cos im the only one tht was chatting so happily outside..
dono wad r they looking at pun.. siao.. din see before hior..

went to the toilet five mins before dismissual..
angeline scared tiok me n i screamed.. gai nia..
haha
n when im in the toilet wanyi poured water on me.
omg
luckily kena a little bit nia.. shit her.. haha

i walked with wen using another staircase cos we still kap bey liao..
=] ok.. ill go with u guys if u wana shop on mon.
i will always be available. yoohoo...

after i got up to bus. the kiap eh was beside me.
she was chatting with her friend abt boiboi stuffs..
n i found out tht she's so damn hiao.. yucks..
n now since she is currently HAIRLESS in da mean time.. it really made her ugly..
sux..
i hate boys in a way.. so i think she's hiao..
n she doesn't have taste in choosing bags.. no fashion sense.. boo
all the bags she used r imitations..
n i really hate tht..

after reaching home...
my mom n my bro were in the kitchen..
busying..
my bro wanted to learn cooking.. so my mom taught him.
both of them sot sot mia..
cooking fried rice..
for almost.... hours..
this was wad the maid told me.. hahahaha
n u noe y....?
my bro wanted to imitate wang dong cheng in ISWAK II

As usual, for only these few weeks before my piano exam, i cycled to Fern's hse for piano lesson..

I was always vry cho lor..
n my legs always kena "ga le" by the bicycle.. sobx..

i was changing the gears as i cycled.. it was a Le Run mountain bike ma.. so i change lai change ki.. change until suddenly it stopped half way n i nearly fell down. so sui.. den.. when i reached lavinia.. i din realised tht there's a car at the junction.. n luckily i din die..cos the driver drove pretty slow.. ammitabha.. hahahax

when i got off my bicycle.. my legs were like.. patah-ing.. pain..

i played my scales.. still ok..
there're much mistakes.. but better than wad i did the last lesson..
but then, the exam pieces r horrible..
kena marah again.. i dono how other pp can do so well.. whereas.. me?? a failure in music..
fcuk..

n the bad news.. Fern told me tht the original exam piece is outta stock..
omg.. i was so shocked u know..
im afraid tht i cant play well in da exam hall..
n im afraid of the examiner.. susan clark..
Fang once told me tht women examiners r more strict compared to men..
i hope tht this time is a better one..
the previous examiner i had was nice..
i "passed with merit" during my grade four exam.. yoohoo..
but fang poured me cold water n said tht i was js lucky..
n i selamba-ly admit n was js running away frm the fact n don wana admit tht im lucky...

anyway, i js hope tht i wont fail in my grade five piano exam this fri.
im so nervous..
during the music recital on sat.. wad i played was totally.. GHOST TUNE..
siasuinya..
sobx..
tht's my best piece u noe.. A2..
watever..
ill js have to work hard for one more week..
den.. mayb ponteng on tht day of tht exam.. n try hard for the following grades..

finally js went home with an awful mood.. tired..
T________T
going to sch later on..
hope tht huiting has the grade five exam pieces..
may god bless me..

i love music..
but im lazy.. n i've no talent in it.
sad.

Its so funny while we dont talk anymore..

Its part of the lyrics from a classical song i heard frm dad's car on wed's morning..

i went to sch to acc liming buy her stuffs..

wenwen came along too..

but.. unfortunately.. both wen n me reached sch at the same time.. but we didn't meet each other..

i admit i was so so so GUAI..

i did my add maths hw at the counter..

i cant go in to the dental room cos thr r pp practising items for teachers' day??!

i felt uneasy though.. but time passed real fast..

around 11.15am, i walked outta sch...

saw yu ting.. she told me wen was outside..

n there.. opposite the road..

she waved like mad..

hahahaa

she's always lidat.. i wonder how good if im her..

we passed the mini market n crossed the road to another buiding opposite the feng yu's dad clinic..

n we went up there.. to wait for liming to finish her ttn..

after tht.. we walked to onestop lo..

went to mercury...

i searched for the playez bag tht i wan but i found out tht its not really nice.. so i gave up..

i looked at the clothes too..

but im not interested in anything..

i js feel like spending my money..

liming bought ALi's wallet at last..

i admit tht we were quite gai lor..

cos.. we keep walking to mercury n to the stalls for many times, not knowing wad o buy..

for wen, at first she wanted to buy a t shirt with an ice cream on it..

it looks very very VERY FUNNY!

hahahaha

i nearly laughed like sampat..

but at last i forced her to buy the ovulation tee cos i think its cute..

too bad its not mine..

sobxx..

i bought a t shirt too..

so damn happy..

but i didn't c any long sleeve clothes tht satisfy me..

im out of clothes to go for ttn..

cos add maths ttn is always tht cold..

saw boxes of couple tees oso..

vry cute..

n not really expensive..

but sure enough im not gonna buy it..

ill WAIT..

hahahahaa

we then went to kfc since the taiwanese restaurant is closed on wed..

so sui we have to climb da stairs for 2 floors..

haihx..

in kfc..

all the workers r lao yi..

im surprised.

liming n i ordered the same food.. Zinger something something.. chicken..

i can tel u tht.. except for the cheesy wedges..

the others are.. Un-eat-able??

the burger.. omg.. when u eat.. the mayoinesse will all flow out n kena yr shirt.. geli nia..

n the veggie seemed to be gross..

yucks..

after eating its already around.. one..

im a bit disappointed tht i cant buy anything somemore bcos of insufficient time..

sobx..

reached sch..

since its teacher's day..

we need to go to da hall..

yihying din turned up bcos of her student exchange interview so i sat bside huiting..

=)

went to da hall..

the stupid tweeties forced me to sit in the front..

i hate tht..

cos im he first since adeline din turn up oso..

grrrr..

bside me is di xuan...

n its so damn siasui to sit bside her cos she keep on clapping her hands n shout n yell for no reason..

i was vry quiet.. cos i've nobody to talk to in front..

later on.. it was recess time..

for around one hour i think...

wenwen they all went to buy vitagen..

n there.. i saw someone tht said tht im "abnormal"..

she kesi paise when she saw me n keep doing her or lo kuan..

vomit..

after recess, i ran away frm tht stupid tweety bird..

hng

i went to s4b n become a s4b student..

hahaha

i covered my face when the stupid tweety birds keep walk lai walk ki finding me..

they r so stupid!

lai n me critised everything on the stage n we keep laughing like siao lang...

too bad pn peh is always around so we can laugh too loud or play a fool..

its monkey's turn to dance n she was totally like a hooker..

so greenish n hiao..

no in front.. no at the back.. broken english.. js like u, monkey..

broken!

went to class after those performances... nth interested me la..

ponteng to wen's class lo..

drank vitagen n walk lai walk ki..

show huiting my new tee.. n she said its nice..

n im so proud to be its owner...

hahax

during dismissual.. i walked out the sch v liming..

chatted a little den tor got up the bus d..

after i went home..

kena marah cos i keep online chatting non stop..

but i dun care la..

keep on nia lo..

lalalalala

Happy Birthday

Gosh..

its my birthday today..

when i walked in da sch early in da morning..

the first person i saw is zhi wei.. followed by lee mei..

i jitao ki siao n become excited. n run run run to lee mei's class..

bahaha

n, gamdong-nya, i received the vry first present from zhi wei..

n wishes from them both.

then, while me n zhi wei r walking to da canteen, tan wan wished me pulak..

i admit im a bit surprise.. but im really happy..

then, saw wen, carrot, lai n ting..

but din join them for morning walk..

pei qi keep piak my butt.. i wonder wad makes her so attracted to it..

i chubit her..

talked abt a weirdo with zhi wei..

den ani i went to the bsb court to join wenwen..

the teacher is damn.. weird?!

wen was so "responsible".. lol.. as a ketua pasukan, i acted like shit during rumah..

but her.. she took it quite seriously la..

compared to me..

but she ponteng oso ma..

same same nia la..

we went to da labs... to laugh at pp..

tht weirdo was real weird.. she treated me as if im her dummy.. haiyo...

i complained to evryone bout her..

gai ler..

her image is totally destroyed by me..

later on.. i went to breakfast with wen, her sis-ting n jun n also her aunt.. at p.tikus.

it was raining..

similar to da condition im havin deep in my heart..

wen said tht im geli.. n i admit i am.. bahahaa

those customers in da shop was really inconsiderate..

the place was so crowded n yet they did not want to get up after eating..

pek cek nia. her aunt got mad n scolded ting..

pity..

ate da jawa mee tht is vry holiao.. n da pancakes..

yummy..

the electric current went off suddenly n the shop dimmed.

after eating breakfast, wen n i went opposite the shop to put on our jackets..

=P

im so happy cos the Giordano jacket of hers fits me well n even match my pants!

oh yea..

祝我生日快乐~

its already 1.22 am...

tmr gotta go early.. cos of the science fair.

but i stil have lots to write over here..

today, as usual..

went to sch earlier than ever..

a bit disappointed cos din see tiok Lee Mei..

i went to da chemistry lab to complete out stupid soap-make-over project..

finished on 9.30am..

Chew Chie n me r worried cos the stupid herbal soap didn't worked out well..

the stupid n useless pH strips keep on showing da same results no matter how much detergent n shampoo i poured on it.

im vry vry shocked cos chew chie really went to take the hydrochloric acid to pour on da soap..

hasiwa..

but everythin went on well la.. the presentation.. everything..

luckily the judges din suspect anything n din sniff the herbal soap. i can say.. I'm damn confident with my soap!

bluff lots n got happy.. n oso happy cos i saw Lee Mei behind me during presentations.. hahahaha

i met liming at the bio lab..

we played flat worms..

i somemore said i wana eat it cos it looks much alike with mushroom.

yoohoo..

we chat lots of things.. walked everywer in sch..

happy enough.

wen came ltr on.. have fun laughing with floppy n wen abt a bamboo stick.

we r really damn high!

omg.. im so talkative tdy! unbelievable..

went for meeting ltr on..

sat behind someone vry geli.. always copy me mia.. hng

but this time wad made me angry is.... yr stupid fren wore the same ODM watch as mine!

im so damn bey shiok.. go to hell.

walked around.. wen was so gilly during sn fair.. yucks..

saw my lou po.. chatted quite a lots..

she had no voice. pity..

Im happy....

but.... deep in my heart.. i miss u..

i really do..