Traffic warden's annual farewell

Sunday was such a boring day..
I nearly died.
T___________T
but thank god monday wasn't exactly that boring..

Around 12 something, the doorbell rang..
hehe..
i knew who was coming to pick me up.. (happy!)
we chatted in the room, did a few things and headed off to gp..
mom was shaking her head seeing tht i was so happy..
and when i went out of the house i was like siao lang..
HAHAHAHA

Walked around the mall..
Had some desserts in wang kok..
Met up wen n jun there..
Jun became "rounder"..
but she's still vry cute.. =)
Went to Studio R and saw a PINK REEBOK SPORTS BRA..
HAHAHAHA
i love it.. cos it's pink..
rm89.90
and there was a vry cute baby adidas sports shoes too..

Met up wen ltr on and fetched her to sch..
We had a few sweets together..
The sch looked scary and creepy..
The farewell.. as usual.. BORING!!

The Maid got angry because ah nee came along with me as an uninvited guest..
She even told LiMing she wana kill her if she eats anything..
Wad's the problem with u?!
Fcuk..
Same thing happened when puiyin and cheowying came..
But later on she gave up and sat beside cheow ying..
GOSH!
GMC was the worst..
He brought along his family..
brought along three big tupperwares and scooped all the leftovers..
GROSS..
he even used plastic bags to store the food.
omg..
r u so poor? u got everything for free!
and for the food that we've paid..
unfair!

I did not take photo with LJ cos she was busy..
hope she doesn't blame me for tht..
sry..

i had a great day.
just because of u~

I don't wanna lose her..

U r one of my best friends..
I can't lose u just like this..
how can i...
i don't wan the history to repeat again..
but i can't stop myself..
i just don't feel like talking to u....
whenever i see u, i feel a sense of fakeness..
to me,
I'M NOT IMPORTANT TO YOU anymore..

We've known each other last year..
around June..
our interests match..
Three of us..
Eunice, u and me were always together..
we talked abt nearly everything..
but then things changed this year..
Eunice went to Aussie..
u went to a better class..
and that's where my nightmares begin.
___________________________________

U kept giving me disappointments..
I tried my best to accept that this is U..
but i can't.

Sometimes..
i'll wait for you by the stairs..
i know i'll surely look very stupid..
and when i saw you...
We said HI..
i walked beside u...
but u acted as i'm invisible..
u keep joking and chatting non stop with yr frens from yr class..
who do u think i'm?
u never wait even if i'm behind u..
u always left me..
turning me even moody..

or..
whenever i find u to chat with u..
u always left me when yr frens frm yr class call u..
do u have to do this to me..?
as if u r someone ON CALL or something...
but u r not..
and u never realise how much it affects my feelings..

Maybe i'm just..
not important to you anymore..
since u once said that frens not from your class ain't so close to u and could not be yr frens anymore..
whatever...
I'm sick of that...

I realised that you r someone who doesn't understand pp's feelings..
u did not tell me about the case that made u cry...
u said u wanted to..
but..
u lied to me instead..
little do u know..
i've known almost part of it..
and i understand that u r secretive..
but all the things u did..
i can't believe that it's u anymore...
do u treat me as your friend?
or.. someone who irritates you?????

First love isn't something to be played of..
Once u lost it..
u lost it forever..
do u know that???
and do u know how bad is that to hurt the feelings of pp in love??
maybe to separate a pair of couples..
maybe to cheat someone you love..
or even to yr FRENS...

I regret what i've done to my ownself..
and when u know how deep u hurt yrself and that person..
u regret..
but it's too late...
i took months to forget the pain..
and u?
i don't think u will feel anything even if the rumours are true..
I can't belive that it's u...
Did u changed or what??
R u that brave enough to kiss and hold yr own best friend's bf..
haix...
but u just don't know that the rumours spread everywhere....

but then u told me that u already changed yr target..
and it's someone younger than u..
and both of u never see each other before..
and after a few days chatting on msn..
he fell for u and u fell for him?
FUNNY..

that's not love k?
that's just an illusion...
but i don't think u actually believe what i said...
and even gave me advice on not accepting THAT MOUSE.
swt..
i know what to do la k..

* please refer to BUSY DAY and scroll down..

Same thoughts

It is already 2.20am..
But right after i had closed the msn tab,
I felt like posting a blog over here..
I'm js..
touched...

2 years had already passed..
but i couldn't believe we stil had the same thoughts after all..
mentally..
finally, i had found someone who understands exactly how i feel..

Ever since year end of form 2, we seldom talk to each other anymore..
partly was because the way i felt towards Jessica..

Although we only managed to chat with each other for several hours..
but i really appreciated that..
u understood my feelings...!!
and i understood yours..
and the most amazing thing is..
we have the same thoughts..

I saved the conversation after u offlined..
Thank you for being my listener..
Thank you, Chin Tee...

Busy day

I woke up around 8am this morning..
Feeling extremely tired becos of insufficient sleeping hours..
I prepared myself and dad fetched me to school..

10am..
I got off dad's car in front of the 7eleven shop lots and went into the school..
As i was walking slowly into the school..
I imagined that it was like 2 years ago..
but things were pretty much different back at those times..
My mind started to wander,
and quickly,
i distracted myself to not think about the past anymore...
Saw yeou ching and serene together as i walked by the new washrooms..

10.15am..
After placing my stuffs in blk gerakan,
i walked to b8.
Alone, again..
But on my way.. i met "someone"..
argh.. guess i'm not so lucky..
That "witch" talked to me as if nth had happened..
and she kept on asking things abt my mom..nee..myself..
she even asked me to find her if i face any probs..
Okay.. I faced a lot of probs..
but i won't tell u.. BOOHOO
I spoke as if i'm a timid primary school girl..
But at least i tried to look into her eyes and talked to her confidently.
I dono y..
But i dare not look into her eyes..
I guess i was afraid..
[But why?!!! she's js a bitch n nth to be afraid of]
She affected my mood pretty much..
arghhhh...
I felt as if she was there to demerit me for the 2nd time.

10.20am..
Finally, I saw LEE MEI!!
=)
vry happy to see her..
We could only chat for a while, cos my civic class was abt to start..

Civic class..
awwwwwww... boring!
There was the man lady, againnnnn...
I couldn't stand her!

11.10am..
I dono how many times yeou ching and su zhen had walked pass my class.
Their teacher let them off as early as 11am..
unfair.. T.T
they waited for me til my class dismiss n i went upstairs with yeou ching to take her sch bag.
I was surprised that su zhen was eventually so hardworking..
reading BIOLOGY..
i suddenly came to realise that..
This is what i don't have in myself, and it caused my grades to drop..
haihx..

11.20am..
As usual, i'll be yeou ching's listener abt her probs on relationships.
We had our lunch in mcD and went back school after that..
by then it was already 12.15pm..

12.45pm...
I had my hair cut in the new toilet..
I had no choice but to cut my precious hair because so tht stupid asshole..
The shape is gone..
T.T
But i was happy since it looks ok..
Thanks Jlan!

1.15pm..
I din go into the stadium cos i was late...
So i went back into blk gerakan to pack my stuffs..
After that, i stood beside the stairs to wait for wen and lai cheng...
=) We joked a little... as usual

** haihx.. lets just start off with the main point:

6.55pm..
School dismissual..
I went to find ZW in physics lab.
We walked out the school without talking much..
[actually, i don know how this happened.. since the science fair, we sort of.. have a gap between us]
She doesn't seem to realise it..
since she has her new frens in her class..
unlike me..
life is awful for me in S4C..
My classmates don show any sign of dislike towards me..
But to me,
me n my classmates are totally like..
different human beings frm different dimensions.
They treated me well, they like me..
but I......
i'm sorry..
we r just very very different...
T_______T

7.30pm..
We had our dinner in Goodall, ordered Sphagetti together...
But then..
ZW's dad appeared..
and things really gone slightly wrong after that..
ZW left me to talk with her dad at another table..
and then, approached me and said that her dad asked her to follow him back..
and also told her that she did not need to go for ttn that night..
I was disappointed..
but i acted calm and smiled..
T___T
i said:" go ahead.. its ok for me."
In my mind..
i thought: It'll be okay.. don't worry..
It's my first time for that BM ttn..
I walked alone along the pedestrian pathway to the tuition centre..
I was a bit confused cos i dono wad to do at all..
haix..

Worst..
when i smsed Li Ming she told me she was not coming cos she suffered frm gastric that afternoon.
but thank god.. yanli came..
but my mood was already vry throughout the whole tuition..
Abt 10 o'clock.. i went home..
Mom was angry when i told her wad had happened..
The night before wed, TUES..
my mom phoned ZW's mom to ask for her help..
but she told my mom that alien will be fetching her daughter home..
so she said if i wana go home with them, i need to tell alien abt that..
I said ok..
but then... thanks to daddy for fetching me..
and thanks to my hp..

Imagined if i had already ask alien for help..
and then she left me like that.. last minute..
vry paiseh k..
den if dad did not know wad happened..
he is not going to fetch me cos he thought that i already had transport..
and will go to their house and wait there instead..
and.. what if.. I'M WITHOUT MY PHONE???!
and lastly.. i'm new to that tuition class..
nobody tells me wad to do and wad not to do there..

I recalled about the events happening last year..
I was supposed to spent my day with Eunice happily..
and go to prangin with wen after school
but i was so angry because of the tennis stuffs that caused my plans to be canceled..
I din talk much with her that day..
Because u wana arrange yr plans to Japan.. u canceled mine??!
and at last..
it rained that afternoon...
kek si ki..
tennis oso canceled ki..
but u wont know how i feel..
hng!

and also.. a day in May's holiday..
I was left alone in qb for hours just to acc u for just a few mins..
anything can happen to me..
and yr mom..
i think she refused to fetch me..
i dare not tell my parents and mok abt that..
i don wan them to worry and..
got angry somemore..

"It's just a sense of selfishness.." someone told me that.

She wanted to chat with me on msn..
but i refused to reply..

Am i important to u anymore?? maybe not...
like what u've said last year..
frens who r close to u r ani considered FRENS..
and u told me last year that yr frens in the whole world is just me and eunice..
I was so shocked..
cos its so unfair to the others..
how abt other pp???
and this year..
u showed me what u meant la..
im not yr fren anymore..

That night..
my mom told me to study hard..
Our family isn't really wealthy as theirs..
It's normal if pp look down on us...
cos of our simple life..
I felt hatred growing in my heart right on that moment..
I promised myself to do well in this coming exam..
But it turned to stress and i cried..
but i slept well that night...
after my loupo's consolation..
maybe pp will think that i'm just being emotional..
but if it is u..
I don't think u'll feel nothin at all

They told me not to pay hopes that are too high on pp like this..
She is one of my best friends..
but why do things like this have to happen..??
It's so unfair..