Losing my direction in life

It felt as if I don't know what to do anymore.
Here I am, sitting on my bed, typing.

I became lazy throughout the internship.
And now week one's over and I'm still in my holiday mood.
I'm sick. I don't feel like doing anything. My room is in a mess.

Visiting Novae kind of freaked me out.
And I wonder, if this career is what I've always wanted.

I have what people called the "Social Anxiety".
I have always tried to overcome this, but recently it just seem that I tried nothing at all.
I'm still that quiet Mingli, who doesn't want to approach people, who keep things to herself,
who rather express her feelings in words than talking/speaking it out.
What's happening to me, really?

Dub dub dub

You made my heartbeat again.
And I think I'm in love.

"S" or ASS?

My feelings are turning neural lately.
I'm talking about love chemistry, it's pH 7 right now.

I couldn't find time thinking about him at all.
It wasn't strange at all, I was expecting this to happen.
But why now, that familiar feeling I had, again...
I don't want to fall in love so quickly.
No! I don't wanna make a fool of myself.
Sigh.

Follow your subconcious, girl.