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No one would be reading my posts over here anymore.
Because it's private, and there's only 7 people in this blog's reading list.
I guess I'd use this as a place to write about my thoughts.
Probably when things aren't right.

Time flies.
Things have changed a lot.
And as usual, nothing goes perfectly smooth.
I've gotten out from somewhere, which laymen would call "The Shit Hole".
My "mom" would be so proud of me if this happened a year back.
But the thing is, SHIT HOLE or not. Does it matter?

No it doesn't.
I don't let go of things so easily.
And it's not because I brainwashed myself,
but.. I just didn't want to remember.
It was... scary.

Everytime I started to reminisce...
Flashbacks came to me. I was so afraid that I didn't wanna think anymore.
Needless to mention about the word "Memories".
Everything's crushed by destructive acts that evening.
The word "sorry" wasn't for apologizing, it was to taunt me instead.
It made me wanting to run even faster instead of going back to where I was.
I remembered the pain that shot up from the back of my feet.
I remembered being helpless, sitting on the floor and cry.
I remembered my brain spinning with solutions that wouldn't worked.
I remembered being so weak physically that I'm unable to fight back at all.
It was the worst nightmare, ever.

So far, you're the best damn thing I've ever met.
It's just that I didn't have the chance to tell you. All these while.
Problem is...
You listen to nobody but yourself.
You couldn't make proper decisions.
And yet so stubborn, like a goat.
You ran when problems arise.
You hide when you couldn't face someone.

I'm born a girl. I do what girls do, and I need someone to rely on.
No matter how hard I try, I'll never understand how a guy think.
And what a man could for his girl. Because I'm not a man.
You can't make me do that. But to give me what I want.
Maybe I made a bad choice.
It's probably not gonna last.
But just a hopping stone?

Someday.
You'd understand why.

So not happy

Don't know how to describe the feeling I'm having right now.
Everything goes wrong. 

Everything crushed and rubbed in a paste.

Like wtf.

Sometimes, putting a smile on the face is so tiring.
Why can't you just understand?

I write less over here ever since I created "MingliBites".

But if you've noticed, I don't blog much about my feelings out there.
Well, that happened ever since horrible things started happening on me,

I swear I'd never trust someone so easily ever again.
And to never, ever show people who I was.

Not especially people like her.

Lim Jia Ki.

She nearly ruined my college life.

But guess what? It's been months and I've gotten over those shits.

Despite all those garbage that came out from her mouth, 

I've made new friends, met better people. 

And of course I can live without him!

But she can't. 

Yes, I admit that I've changed.

After all those shitty matters, the impact changed me even more.

Not my appearance, not my personality, but the way I think.

And then it got me stressed out, really. I spent my time figuring out what I want.

No matter what I do, where I go, I've to HIDE. I hate those bitches gossip about me.

I hate people discussing behind my back whether I already had sex or not.

And I hate people calling me... a slut? or a lesbian? a play girl or something?

Almost the whole class knows about what happened back in highschool.

Thanks to Lim Jia Ki. And if you were me, are you gonna go nuts?
Go nuts when nobody wants to talk to you.

Just because of the rumours.

And there's once, during Drawing III.

I was shading my stickman in class and I got really bored.
So I took out my iPhone and started to view photos from Instagram.
Guess what... Seongyu's beside me and he splurted out those words I'm so sensitive of!
In that class were nobody else except people like Shi Kia, Peng Jiet and Jiaki.

Seong Yu. He fucking said, "Hey, you kap lui or what?"
I was like... FUCK man, why do you always have to say the wrong thing

 at the wrong time! in front of the wrong people!

It's not that I hate Seong Yu or what.
Yes, he is my friend and he could be a great company.

But! His mouth. OH-MY-GOD. He ALWAYS says the wrong thing!

In front of Jia Ki, he would sometimes said to me, 

"Why don't you ask Peng Jiet? Everyone are FRIENDS" then gave me a sly smile.

And I always felt like punching him because I really had enough of them both.

They are OUT OF MY LIFE. And I wouldn't want them to come back and mess it up again.

I don't wanna created more problems for myself as that Lim Jia Ki is such a paranoid.

She thinks of things far beyond reality.

All I want is just to be accepted, and I could be really really nice.

I'm growing up with time, I face a lot of pressure from the public.

 I see all sorts of people. Different people, they give me different feelings.

And deep inside, I know I can trust nobody no matter how nice that person is.

That's also part of the reason why I feel horrible, I've nobody to talk to.

People around wouldn't understand the situation I'm going through.

How can I expect people to talk to me about things they don't know?

And then I started thinking about the future.

I thought about mom and dad.

I thought about everything.

A change would definitely swipe away part of myself.

And it is hard and it would hurt. Baby, I know that it would hurt.

But I really can't take the pressure. I have to... let go of it.

Week 5

MONDAY

Shampoo-ed my baby onion at the Car Wash after class.
I have one hour before meeting up with Eunice and Yeou Ching.

We had steamboat dinner at Lolipot.

Food was awesomez.

The buds and the blogger.

TUESDAY

Had lunch with Jason at Santorini. 

Another cafe located at the Georgetown area near to college.

I didn't know the existence of the restaurant till Jiong blogged about it.

So since we both have yet tried the food there, why not?

Spaghetti with Napoletana sauce

Spaghetti Bolognese

Dessert

Iced Latte or Mocha

Blue Curacao Mocktail

WEDNESDAY

Three of us fell sick.
But couldn't find a place to lunch at.
So we decided to 以毒攻毒, eat stuffs that we weren't supposed to.

Yik Ting's Tomyam Noodles

Rice with Fish fillets, Sweet and Sour Sauce

During the Raya Holidays...

Went to Sakae Sushi on a Wednesday afternoon.

Little Keith brought me there because I was constantly craving for japanese food.

Almost all shops are closed because it was Hari Raya. 

:'(

Isn't this cute?

Went to try James Foo Western Food with Little Keith again.

The price was relatively low for a western cuisine, but the food was just OK.

Chicken Cordon Bleu

Fish with BBQ sauce

Roselle Juice

And lastly, dinner at Dragon-i before watching THE SMURFS!
Also with little Keith.

I think I just handsomized this guy... by a bit!

FRESH Fruit Tea Experts

Art History lesson ended early today, 11 a.m.
Only 6 from my class turned up, while the the CS3A's were fully present.

See the difference?

o.O

Lunch is always gonna be...

Char Koay Teow, Western Food, Economy Rice and nothing else.

We have been eating that for more than a year now, and it's getting yucky.

So... I decided to go to somewhere else to try out new food.

"FRESH, maybe? Could we try that?" I asked Yik Ting.

She said okay and immediately, we went.

Jason came along with us too.
:D

Okonomiyaki

Pink Grape Fruit, Black Current and Passion Fruit

Niceeeeee.
I really love first tries.
And this was one of them.
:)

Yay. 

It's Sunday again.

I had lunch with Keith right after visiting Little Penang.

We went to Salsas yoooo! And I'll come back here again for sure.

The set lunch's price is reaaaaaally reasonable.
Price range: RM13.50, RM15.50, RM18.50

Woohoo!

Went to Gurney to watch Final Destination 5 after that.
And then it rained. So cold that I wanted to eat something hot, for dinner.

On the way to La Mei Zi restaurant...

Yeah yeah, it was my first visit to the Nagore Road branch.

There were lotsa restaurants around here too, I'd probably come try out for lunch next time.

Tomyam soup and Chicken Soup.

and...
ITADAKIMASU!

Week 3

The story goes on...

On Friday, there was no class.

It was the Equatorian's Holiday.

Everyone was invited to the graduation showcase's opening at Straits Quay!

We had breakfast at Pappa Rich with the CS3A's.

Zeon and I had the same plate of fried rice.

And I couldn't help but say "有得吃，好幸福哦."

Click click.

Raymond refused to take pics with me in the car.

Pttf.

After the Showcase, had a short meetup with (^^^)

We sat in Dome, played pig shot and I ate my favourite Spicy olio pasta.

The worst I've ever had so far. Screw Straits Quay's Dome.

The veggies were all in such big pieces.

And when I got home...

I was surprised to find a Lexus RX 450 in the house.

A brand new one with the lucky number 68.

OMG. My uncle came all the way from Perlis. 

And he sold of his Sorento.

O.O

Then, it was Saturday.

I had a badminton date with my classmates in the morning.

Some of their roomates at Burmahtel joined us too.

Raymond really got on my nerves.

Felt like stabbing him over and over. Muahaha.

When I reached at 10am, he was still asleep.

I actually texted him on 8am saying, "Wake up or else you die."

But I guess he didn't see it. We even let him lajak-ed till 10.30am.

He eventually got up and changed, but he never brushed his teeth. Omfg so disgusting.

Then we headed out to CRC only to find out that all courts were full till 1pm.

So I drove them to BeeHooi cafe, where we all had breakfast. 

And that guy that got on my nerves ate some kinda weird breakfast.

* look at the picture above*

Ya.. exactly, he had Loh Nui.

The clock struck half past two after the badminton session ended.
All I had on me was only RM3.70, but a bowl of Ais Buah is worth to spend off everything right?
Leaving me with RM0.20
XD