Dear Stanic,

How are you?
Ray told me you've been to KL.
I've been trying so hard to not talk about you.

Or even think about you.

I hid you from my newsfeed.
I never dare myself to click your Facebook profile.
I hid Gons, Jack, Ryn and Yoke Shian from my newsfeed too.
Couldn't take it when I saw Doreen's face on your timeline.

I don't understand why both of you have to be so mean.

Worst, my mind doesn't listen to me most of the time.

I miss you when Environmental Science and Services class gets way too boring.

Sometimes, I get very depressed and lonely. Nobody was there for me.

And sometimes, I cry myself to sleep when I'm missing you too much.

Seriously boy, why.

Steady girl.

He's gonna pay for it.
No more tears, okay?

No longer your muse

Baby, I miss you.

It's been almost 4 months.
And I've never stopped counting down since the day we separated.

I'm counting down towards the sixth month.
And then, a year.

Glad that Ray's been back into my life.
He used to be such a gift to me, and I loved him like my own brother.

But not any longer, after so much that have happened.
And the moment when he asked, "Do you still like him?"
I went silent. I knew I miss you so badly and I wanted to cry.

But no matter what and anyhow, I know I can make it without you.
Thanks for teaching me such a valuable lesson.